A Dear Diary Moment
i was reminiscing this past day and i can't believe it, but i did, i "forgot" to mention this guy i met at convention. well actually i've met him before, but this time, and at this convention, which i will forever hold in my dreams and thoughts, he uttered those three words every girl waits to hear. But before i go off telling you about what he said, let me tell you about him.
Well, i won't be shallow and rave on about his looks, i'll keep it a suprise. this guy though, he's so perfect. now, i know every girl thinks that her guy is perfect and without even the smallest flaw, but this guy is seriously without flaw, you might even say, "without blemish". now i like a guy that is smart and has real stuff to say, and whoa does he ever! he's always got something to say about this world, something to say and an opinion on everything that is going on. he's so in-tune with what's going on, it's like he just knows everything. it's so awesome just to hear him talk about stuff on and on, the passion that's behind his words is so amazing.
he is not a part of this world though, he's in no way into material things, but don't get me wrong, he's pretty well off. he lives in this fabulous house, actually his "fathers' house", and he's got servants, and his dad's got houses- yeah that was plural houseS. okay so they're loaded, but he's not greedy with his immense riches. he definitely gives to those that need help. and he's told me that if ever i need something i just need to ask him and he'll give it to me. no, seriously, he said "ask, and I'll give it to you". and he doesn't want anything from me, just my undying love- and boy has he got it, with a line like "ask", what? am i suppose to say no thanks??!!
i've known him for a while so we were kinda acquaintances first, then friends, and now, well... more than friends! and when were friends we agreed early on to talk things out. i was a little hesitant until he brought our relationship to my attention. he's been saying from the very beginning that he doesn't want a superficial, on and off relationship- he wants to be serious with me if i'm willing to be serious with him. i say "yeah, sure, okay", but it was kind of a long distance relationship so it was kind of hard to keep each other accountable, well it was mostly me. i'll be truthful, my eyes have wandered, sometimes i let other things and other people get in the way of us. i don't know why i did, i always knew he was the one for me. but anyways, he was really good about it, he confronted me and told me how he felt about me, and when i realized how much he had already given up just to be with me and just to talk to me, i understood i was being totally unfair to him. you know what though? he has not yet done to me what i did to him. it's hard to believe, yeah i know, but seriously, he so hasn't "wandered" and he's waited around for me. he's so sweet and devoted!!! i still can't believe i used to question his feelings for me.
so yeah, so that's as much as i'm going to tell you because you possibly couldn't understand him untill you meet him.
oh yeah, and he's great with kids, and my mom and dad really like him too. - utter perfection!
the words: it was during one of the sessions that he first said those three little words, and he said it again later that night. he said "I love you". it felt so great! i got this warm tingly feeling and my palms got sweaty, and i just felt so...loved! it was awesome. and then i said it back to him because i mean it, i said "I love you". i'm sure he got all warm and tingly. then the girly-girl in me came out and i started crying. it was such an awesome night!
i don't know why i didn't realize the extent of his love earlier. as if it wasn't clear when he gave up heaven, came down to this earth, was born in a manger, lived as a son of a carpenter, traveled like he didn't own anything, healed, helped and loved everyone around him, all to die on the cross and rise again on the 3rd day- so that i can be in heaven with him one day. it's this dense human mind- it's just so good at questioning the purest love that a God can show to his people. why was it so hard for me just to understand that- us humans seperated ourselves from God by disobeying His commandment, and still He loves us so much that he sent his Son to die so that we wouldn't have to die eternal death in hell. why was it so hard to understand a simple love that doesn't ask me to give anything but myself. i knew everything else about him, the stuff he did, the things he said, and i knew he loves me, and now i finally understand that, his love is so vast and so deep that it will never end.
Well, i won't be shallow and rave on about his looks, i'll keep it a suprise. this guy though, he's so perfect. now, i know every girl thinks that her guy is perfect and without even the smallest flaw, but this guy is seriously without flaw, you might even say, "without blemish". now i like a guy that is smart and has real stuff to say, and whoa does he ever! he's always got something to say about this world, something to say and an opinion on everything that is going on. he's so in-tune with what's going on, it's like he just knows everything. it's so awesome just to hear him talk about stuff on and on, the passion that's behind his words is so amazing.
he is not a part of this world though, he's in no way into material things, but don't get me wrong, he's pretty well off. he lives in this fabulous house, actually his "fathers' house", and he's got servants, and his dad's got houses- yeah that was plural houseS. okay so they're loaded, but he's not greedy with his immense riches. he definitely gives to those that need help. and he's told me that if ever i need something i just need to ask him and he'll give it to me. no, seriously, he said "ask, and I'll give it to you". and he doesn't want anything from me, just my undying love- and boy has he got it, with a line like "ask", what? am i suppose to say no thanks??!!
i've known him for a while so we were kinda acquaintances first, then friends, and now, well... more than friends! and when were friends we agreed early on to talk things out. i was a little hesitant until he brought our relationship to my attention. he's been saying from the very beginning that he doesn't want a superficial, on and off relationship- he wants to be serious with me if i'm willing to be serious with him. i say "yeah, sure, okay", but it was kind of a long distance relationship so it was kind of hard to keep each other accountable, well it was mostly me. i'll be truthful, my eyes have wandered, sometimes i let other things and other people get in the way of us. i don't know why i did, i always knew he was the one for me. but anyways, he was really good about it, he confronted me and told me how he felt about me, and when i realized how much he had already given up just to be with me and just to talk to me, i understood i was being totally unfair to him. you know what though? he has not yet done to me what i did to him. it's hard to believe, yeah i know, but seriously, he so hasn't "wandered" and he's waited around for me. he's so sweet and devoted!!! i still can't believe i used to question his feelings for me.
so yeah, so that's as much as i'm going to tell you because you possibly couldn't understand him untill you meet him.
oh yeah, and he's great with kids, and my mom and dad really like him too. - utter perfection!
the words: it was during one of the sessions that he first said those three little words, and he said it again later that night. he said "I love you". it felt so great! i got this warm tingly feeling and my palms got sweaty, and i just felt so...loved! it was awesome. and then i said it back to him because i mean it, i said "I love you". i'm sure he got all warm and tingly. then the girly-girl in me came out and i started crying. it was such an awesome night!
i don't know why i didn't realize the extent of his love earlier. as if it wasn't clear when he gave up heaven, came down to this earth, was born in a manger, lived as a son of a carpenter, traveled like he didn't own anything, healed, helped and loved everyone around him, all to die on the cross and rise again on the 3rd day- so that i can be in heaven with him one day. it's this dense human mind- it's just so good at questioning the purest love that a God can show to his people. why was it so hard for me just to understand that- us humans seperated ourselves from God by disobeying His commandment, and still He loves us so much that he sent his Son to die so that we wouldn't have to die eternal death in hell. why was it so hard to understand a simple love that doesn't ask me to give anything but myself. i knew everything else about him, the stuff he did, the things he said, and i knew he loves me, and now i finally understand that, his love is so vast and so deep that it will never end.
posted by tyna at Saturday, May 28, 2005
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