Upcoming Events:

i haven't forgotten about blogging, vaguely, i've been busy, uninspired, and drained of words because of term papers and readings. but there is plenty of news to be shared and some very good news which must be publicized:

1. this is the last month of my BA, after that, it's all in God's hands. from what i understand He has big hands, so lets hope my future that rests in them is also big! i'm looking for a job, anything related to law/law office, so i've joined an unprecedented number of job search websites in hopes to find some legit employment- the search is going great, i'm sending out resumes, cover letters, and refrences left and right, but no one's replied yet... if all else fails, i'll have to go to "daddy" and ask him to ask his connections.

2. this coming month will be a whirlwind of activity, i've got 5 finals, 3 papers, 2 presentations, 2 more in-class "quizes", and a trip to plan... i'll get to that later

3. i'm at my grandma's house and for the past 15 mins she's been fascinated by my mp3 player, she keeps saying "it's so small, how do you get music from it?" i had to go through the task of telling her how to download music, and how you upload it onto the mp3 player then hook up headphones into the little hole... i came across some trouble as i know very few malayalam words pertaining to download, headphones, hook up, usb port etc.

4. the great thing about saturdays in surrey, and the only great thing about surrey in general (besides my grandparents) are the garage/yard sales. i got these 3 really great art-deco bowls from the 70s for $10- in really good condition too! i love those kind of bowls- my mom has a few from the early 80s and come my leaving the house, those bowls come with me

5. there are some pretty important changes going on within the family, all for the best, but all going on at once. these next couple of years will be jam packed with interesting events i'm sure. and after the end of this month things will be in place to permanently change the state of the family. without saying too much until things are set in stone and legally finalized, we're looking forward to some decisions that will make us all happier members of this family. don't jump to conclusions yet, i'll tell you all what going on when things are done.

6. the only thing on my mind lately, has been......my trip to CALIFORNIA!! i got the (suprising) okay from my parents to go with my friends to LA. we're going for 11 nights and 12 days. we'll be staying next to the beach, going to disneyland, universal studios, six flags, and some other places which i will disclose once i'm back!!- i can't talk much more about this- all the planning and decision making is driving me insane- i just want to go now. everytime i'm with my friends all we end up taking about is what we're going to do when we're in LA, transportation, and places we HAVE to visit...

the process of asking my parents wasn't as grueling as i thought, i asked if i could, and after a session of "make sure you..." and "don't...." and "what else...." and "for how long...." i got the final okay. the tickets are booked and there's no turning back!

7. i can't give up thinking about what's going to happen after graduation. i'm going to have to leave never never land and grow up, get a real job, with real people, and enter the real world. i can sense the emotional change that's suppose to happen, but i don't want to face it as reality. i know i keep talking about this over and over again, but it's the dominating thought in my mind: that i have no set path in front of me, i'm standing at the edge of my life and at the end of the next couple of months i'm going to have to take a step that'll decide how i my future turns out. i've decided to write the LSAT again in the fall, everything i'm hoping to become and do with my life depends on that LSAT- i'm giving myself the coming summer to get over my fear of the LSAT and study to the point of perfection.

Disclaimer:

it's a pity i must write what i am about to write, because i should assume what will be said is an already known fact.... to those who know me (even moderately). those who don't know me, of course, have my pardon and i hope will come to understand me a little bit more with what am about to write.

i am a person closely associated with sarcasm and it has suited me well. it is sometimes misconstrued as cynical, opinionated, over-dramatic, or mean. but for this i make no apologies. what i lack in kindness i make up for in other qualities that are less... (what i perceive to be) weak.
much of what i write on this blog is imbued with that same sarcasm and i have left much to the responsibility of the reader to decipher between what is true and what is exaggerated. i leave this to the reader to make these certain judgements, because i assure you i have made certain judgements about you.
however i add this disclaimer- though i have pre-conceived notions of you, i do not hold you accountable to them, and expect the same from you in return. do not trust that the words i write are comepletely truthful, so therefore do not assume to hold me accountable to all of which i write on this blog.
i must also add that, what i write, i mean to write. i do not ever intend to go through the process of withdrawing my foot from my mouth, and have therefore been very cautious in the way of my phraseology. i cannot, regrettably, control the way you the reader interprets what i say- for you as an individual are seeing through certain judgements, personal experiences, dogmatic beliefs, political views and the like- for which i have no control over.
here i must stress that your perception of me will strongly reflect the way in which you interpret what i write. as such i stress that those who do not know me well enough, should not presume to inform me of what i should and should not write or consider writing.

from this i trust the following to result: a better understanding that what i write is not merely of surface value. many factors have played and are playing in the topic of which i speak, no matter the triviality of the subject. thus i expect that without a thorough understanding of what these factors are, one will not request of me to retract any of what i write, unless i have fierecly insulted or degraded your person- in which case i will consider further discussion on the matter.


as a final note, please understand "this isn't personal, it's just business"

vacation

as the weather gets progressively better i'm feeling somewhat more apprehensive, about gradution etc. but i think i've already covered my fears about what the future has to hold in many previous posts....

i'm sitting here in the library, with a stack of notes to type up (a prefered method of studying that organizes my notes at the same time) but here i am typing on blogger and periodically looking across the bookshelves to the guy trying to do his readings but is clearly as bored and out of it as i am- he's changed his position 6 times in 5 minutes.

i've discovered facebook, after some carefull thought, i came to the conclusion that it's not that bad, i've come across the where abouts of people i've gone to highschool with- not that i hope to re-establish a relationship with them or anything, just knowing where they are is just enough gossip for me to pass on.

i was asked by my youth pastor to do a mini-preach last sunday at youth, it was from James 1 and was taken aback by how well james writes this book, and the importance of the message that he's talking about. i also had to the chance to go back to one of my favourite christian authors of all time- C.S. Lewis for some more of his witty insight into the matters of temptation, faith and similar God-things.

i'm trying to figure out a way to approach my parents, ask them to let me go on vacation with my friends, post-grad, but i haven't exactly figured out how. i keep playing possible scenarios in my mind, and at the end of all of them i settle with the expected answer and rather than get angry, scheme ways to disappoint them just a little without tarnishing my own reputation. is that too mean? oh well, i'll rephrase it when they actually let me go on vacation.

i've spent the greater part of my "study time" wasted on surfing the net, updating facebook, and writting this blog. perhaps i'll use my mind to some better use, and actually do some work.